Constantly i am told i am to nice to people. That is because i hardly ever say no, i will bend over backwards for anyone, especially the people closest to me!!! Why is it so hard to tell people no?  I can say no a million times NO! NO! NO! NO! thats not the hard part the hard part is sayin it to the people themselves. All i want to is help, and people know that. Everyone knows that about me and they use it to their advantage... yea there are some people who do not take advantage of me, but the majority of people do. Its horrible... and u would think that my parents would be 2 of them... NOPE!! they are the main ones. I do everyhing for them.. i feel like i have some sort of obligation to them because they have brought me into this world, but there is only so much i can do. I wish i could tell people no, but then i fel bad and they make me feel like i am a piece of shit.. it shouldnt be like this.

Im just tired, and drained from all of this...

i keep waiting for things to change...

but nothing has changed.

~christina~

Isn't it crazy what life throws at you. At one moment things could be the greatest then in a split second it can all go to hell. How is it that most people have these productive ways of copin with every damn thing that is thrown at them, at it seems like nothin has even fazed them at all? Then there are these other people.. like me and others i know... who have no way to possible handle what gets thrown at them. Its like WTF? Is there like some secret handbook tht says "hey this is how to cope and deal with this" and u read on and it tells you step by step what to do. I just think i am missing something in my life. Recently i have been thinkin about my life and beliefs. I am baptized Catholic but havent even had first communion...people who arnt even cath. know thats crazy.  And i believe in God and everything but  haven made to much of a commitment to that. I think that if i bring this into my life and take the time like i wanted to do but just was to lazy to do, i would find what has been mising. Someone i see almost every day, you could say, opened my eyes to this and seein him and how he sees and views certain things and his beliefs, which some are similar to mine, make me believe even mor that this is what i should do. I just have to get off my ass and do something about it.

that was awesome, i havent vented in a while!!

peace and love,

christina 

___STATS___
NAME--christina
AGE--15
DOB--05211990
HEIGHT--5ft
WEIGHT--107.5?
SHOE SiZE--6

(((LOVE/ REALTiONSHiPS/ SEX)))
ARE YOU SiNGLE?--no
iF YOU ARE, ARE YOU DATiNG ANYONE?--yea
iF YOUR NOT WHO iS THE SPECiAL SOMEONE?--jeff
HAVE YOU HAD YOUR FiRST KiSS?--yea
ARE YOU A ViRGiN?--naaa
HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU HAD YOUR FiRST KiSS?--8th grade
HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU LOST YOUR ViRGiNiTY?--14
HAVE YOU BEEN iN LOVE?--u could say that
HAVE YOU EVER CHEATED ON SOMEONE?--hell no
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN CHEATED ON?--hel yea

*~*~*SCHOOL*~*~*
NAME OF YOUR SCHOOL--joliet central
GRADE--10
FAVORiTE TEACHER--dont got 1
FAVORiTE TEACHER--none

[ [ [RiGHT NOW] ] ]
WHAT ARE YOU WEARiNG?--clothes
HOW DO YOU HAVE YOUR HAiR?--down
WHAT ARE YOU LiSTENiNG TO?--music
WHATS iN YOUR CD PLAYER?--nohin
ARE YOU WATCHiNG ANYTHiNG?--nope
HOW iS YOUR MOOD TODAY?--hyper
WHATS THE WEATHER LiKE?--gay
DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?--no

>>>>LAST PERSON YOU...<<<<
DATED/BOYFRiEND--jeff
KiSSED--jeff
TOUCHED--sister
HUGGED--cant remember
DANCED WiTH--to many to say
TALKED ON THE PHONE TO--jeff
TALKED TO--jeff
iMED--idk
iMED YOU--idk
CALLED--jeff

_*:_:*_FAVORiTES_*:_:*_
BEVERAGE(S)--coke
ALCOHOLiC BEVERAGE(S)--VODKA
OUTFiT YOU WEAR--dont have one as ong as its tight and makes me look good lol
COLOR--green
TV SHOW(S)--inuyasha
MOViE(S)--to many
MONTH--may
DAY OF THE WEEK--friday
NAME(S) OTHER THAN YOURS-- jeff, brandi
MUSiC ARTiST(S)--way way way to many
ACTOR/ACTRESS--nono
FRAGRANCE--???

::::RANDOM::::
DO YOU HAVE PETS?-- nope
iF SO WHAT ARE THEiR NAMES?--??
WHATS YOUR RiNGTONE ON YOUR CELL PHONE?-- a default one
DO YOU WEAR MAKE UP?--yeah i need to
WHO ARE/iS YOUR BEST FRiEND(S)?-- th 3 amiga's Me Janell and jen
DO YOU LiKE TO DANCE?--fuck yeah
HAVE YOU EVER SMOKED WEED?--hell yeah
HOW MANY TiMES?--to mant to count lol
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN iN A FiGHT?--yepperz
DO YOU HATE ANYONE?--no
DiD YOU LiKE THiS SURVEY?--its ok